Always thinking. Always spinning. Did I get too close? Who has touched that? Should I wash my hands? I miss my grandchildren. It’s hard to breathe. Am I sick? Should I go to work? I’m so tired.
At age 61, in the midst of the COVID-19 pandemic, Barb Douglas is facing depression and anxiety for the first time in her life.
She’s physically cut off from her children and grandchildren. Her grocery store job is a source of endless stressors, from coping with scared and frustrated customers to wondering if the pen she’s using to fill out orders is tainted with the virus.
“If someone isn’t feeling anxious with COVID, then you’re not breathing,” she said. “Everything’s involved. Your life, your finances, your children.”
“I don’t want to make my family sick. I’m at the grocery store all the time. How many people am I in contact with? I’m not willing to take that chance. I haven’t seen my grandkids since April.